Happy Mothers Day MOM!
Its a day late but I was oh so sick on Mothers Day I didn't even leave my bed. So sorry my mothers day wish to you is late, but afterall its Katie.
My thoughts were with you on mothers day. I was thinking back to last mothers day when I talked to you on the phone and you said everything was looking good. You said your back still hurt but everything else seemed to be going well.
You didn't ever want us to be bothered by your pain and you probably felt like if you didn't believe it, it wasn't really real. I wish you would have let us know sooner because then maybe I could have better prepared myself for the loss of you.
Somedays I am so angry, the world keeps spinning and the sun keeps rising like nothing ever happend; and that makes me mad! Because for me, something has changed, I am missing a big piece of me that I can never get again. I can't ever ask you, who you took to prom. I can't ever ask you to watch my kids for the weekend, I can never ask if you were ever proud of me. I can never ask for your help.
I think of you every day mom. Everyday I drive through the country and see different camp sites or places Dad would take us, whether you actually enjoyed those times or not, I think of you. I think of the day trips into the country we would take. We would pack cooler full of food for lunch, pack the dogs into the back of the truck, and of chorse pack the green "stanley" coffee thermos(later to be dumped and filled with pepsi, which never did taste quite right).
I wish I could get even one of those days back, just to be close to you. I LOVE YOU MOM,
Happy Mothers Day. Katie
